[15 Jun 2004|12:26am] so yea.. i now have a new Live Journal. so if you find this one and think im a cool kid (doubt that will happen often though) comment on here. and then ill hit you up using the new one. it might take a few days because i forget this one is still active at times. but it will happen. Scouts Honor. -seanthomas- 13 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[02 Feb 2004|07:21pm] yea.. so i have decieded to go friends only.. you know what to do.. deal... or ask to be added.. -seanthomas- 22 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[28 Jan 2004|03:46pm] waves of depression knocking me from my feet to my knees. out of no where it seems to hit for no real reason. i always find away back up. but not without shedding a tear. then another wave hits same place. but this one is harder. and more violent. i dont understand it. -seanthomas- 2 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[22 Jan 2004|07:48am] im fucking sick of your yelling and screaming. stop jacking off. take your finger outta your asshole. and get off your high horse. go pick up your wife whos car has broken down. you fucking prick. im sick of all this triveal bullshit. you people need to grow up. look at what you hold important. hopefully you will see how badly you have wasted your life to this date. its sickening to see your drama unfold. grow up. open your eyes. get the fuck over yourselves. for some reason hearing that news has hit me hard. for some reason im missing you like crazy. but i never want to see you again. i hate the sound of your voice. your face makes me sick. but yet its killing me to know that you shall soon be married. all the shit thats going on with my grandma is scary. i hope she never gets so bad that she cant take care of herself. its already nearing that point and its fucking scary. i wish there was something we could do for her. but i know we really cant do anything. i wish she would open her eyes and see how bad it is. she needs to talk to my mom or uncle about everything that needs to be descused. im scared something will happen and my grandpa will be left alone and in the dark about everything. i know mom. i shouldnt worry. but its hard not to worry. after what happened with grandma thomas i cant help but worry. i didnt see what happened to grandma thomas and that scared me. but i witness this every day and its fucking sad. im scared and worried there is nothing i can do about it. -seanthomas- 4 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[21 Jan 2004|02:45pm] so there is this really cool ass band from Cirtus County. there name is So Does Plastic. they are trying to get show down here soon they finished recording and you should check out there site.. look under the photos, and shows. should be the first set, and see who took some of the pictures.. ( www.sodoesplastic.com ) and mandy, i dont know your address, but casey needs it so he can send you the cd. i havent updated lately. nothing worth saying. douglas attacked my foot last night. and i suppose while wearing shoes and socks at school the cut got rubbed the wrong way. but when i just took my shoe off the bottom half of my sock was coverd in dry blood. it is rather gross. i shall throw those socks away. the cut isnt that bad actually. but its nasty as fuck. im outtie. -seanthomas- 5 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[17 Jan 2004|01:40am] i dont know what this feeling is inside of me. maybe its the beer flowing through my veins. but i cant stop the flow. i wish it would stop. it finally ends. and i leave. next thing i know i find myself back there. the flow seems almost un-stoppable. in crazy how much i need to let it flow. maybe its the consummation that needs to stop. but im not there yet. not even half ways. maybe if i stop the flow, but continue the consummation that will help me on my path. and the constant want and need for the poison to fill my lungs is so hard to resist. i shall now let the flow return. i shall now let the poison fill my lungs. -seanthomas- 1 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[15 Jan 2004|12:56pm] i hate this place i spend most of my waking moments at. this place called school. im sick of this ignorance surrounding me. there doesnt seem to be more then a handful off people who can go a sentences with saying dog, nigger, nigga, or any other slang word for friend. its hard to walk down the halls faking expressions, and laughters when i feel so held back. your ignorance makes me physcially sick. your face doesnt help. if i could only hold you down with one hand and smack you silly with the other maybe then you will see how easily influenced you are. its just music. dont do what the people on the other side of the magical music box tell you to do. think for yourself for once. and maybe you will see the flaw in your ways. maybe you will open your eyes to your ignorance. -seanthomas- 2 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[15 Jan 2004|12:50pm] hey. im bored. im in 4th. i want a cig. there in mandys car. one more hour of school. i cant wait for it to be over. tommorow shall be friday. it shall be great not going to school on monday. i cant wait for this da to be over. for the sooner today is done the sooner we have 3days off. stupid dixie. if we werent on 4x4 we would only have a half day tomorrow. but instead we have a full day. so i cant just stay in bed. i dont want to work tonight. fuck publix, i hope that place burns to the ground. im hungry. are you hungry? i bet if your hungry you have money for food though. i have nothing. i shall wait until i get home to eat. sorry im bored. and i cant totally form sentence. just thought. -seanthomas to let me fall..

[14 Jan 2004|02:49pm] im not happy with myself. i have been skipping school lately. its not outta hand yet thank god. but its getting close. luckly today i stayed all day. and it actually wasnt that bad. besides falling asleep in 3rd and almost falling outta seat. but besides that it was a good day. im miss a few people. if you see you name we need to hang out.. caitlin, amber, mel, wes, christinaC., and pritty much everyone in the CC. although i dont believe any of you read this livejournal of mine. but i am going to go on a hunt for citrus county people on mandy's livejournal friends list.. im outta yall. -seanthomas- 7 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[13 Jan 2004|08:11am] i havent updated in along time. sorry. right now im in first. and im TA. been spending the past few days with mandy, we went to Ocal to see Bryon Joe Casey and Amandas band. pritty good show. then me and mandy where drinking in her car and lost track of time ad then went to find everyone. but Casey and Bron had left. but Joes jeep was still there but no sign of Joe. so we came back to st pete. good times. i bet you havent been to the first place UnderOath played.. yea motherfucker. the old lady that owns th place is fucking great. she knows so much about so many bands. and alot of bands i like started out there. it was great.. well im headin g to 2nd later yall. -seanthomas- 2 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[06 Jan 2004|11:19pm] i havent slept in 2days. i have been driving on on empty tank most of the time at school. either im pumped full of mountain dew (i have had two both mornings.) or im just about to fall asleep. it sucks. i really think i have a sleeping problem. but ill live. and try and get over it. school is going pritty good though. i only have one class i actually have to think it. and thats whatever the fuck they call the math im in. and its not hard. its like a mix of algebra 1A and 1B. but its not as hard as algebra 1. and since i have already had 1A and 1B, its easy. as shit. but it doesnt count to wards my college shit. so i might switch to algebra 2. which would be good. because id try and go to a class that is the same period. and would hopefully be with mandy. i have talked to any teachers about it. or any body for that matter. but i dont know if id be able to switch to it cause its not goals. anyways. heres what i have. T.A.=marine bio I ceramics I math something or another marine bio II HAPPY B-DAY AMBER!!! -seanthomas- 6 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[04 Jan 2004|07:11pm] well well well... this break has been great. besides the what happened friday night. everything else was amazing. friday night i have a poem about it. alcohol flowing throw the veins of the lovers. THC spinning in the lungs of kid in the back seat. and the only sober one placed gently in the back. speed and blasting music. the music gets turned down. the screams of disappointment. the radio goes back up. wheels screech. we hit something. a tidal wave off dirt and depression rush over the car. trying to move but we cant. reverse then forward. trying to speed away. fucked up tire. home. hardly a tire on the rim. sad faces. regret. sorrow. phone calls all over town. adults. rides home. sleep. -seanthomas- 10 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[01 Jan 2004|10:52pm] I don't know what to do anymore. I beg to know about the past. But you wont tell me. You start to cry. Instead of running to my arms you run away. And find shelter in someones else. I have to pull you away to get you to notice me. Its old and it hurts. I bet you the two in that room Saturday know more about your past then I do. thats fucked up bullshit.. and it hurts like you would not believe. I don't know what to do anymore. I find out more reading live journals. Entries and comments. And listening to you talk to others then I have from you the whole time. I'm hurt.. I'm confussed.. I don't know what to do anymore. You are suppose to be here now. But I don't where you are. I'm confused. And I'm scared as into if you are ok or not. I hope you get here soon, or that you get on-line soon. I hope you are ok. I hope i get to see you tonight. -seanthomas- -hypocritical maybe- -but i don't know how to get through to you- 3 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[01 Jan 2004|12:53am] its 2004. still feels like shity ass old 2003 and 2002.. and every year since 1986. fuck the new year. its a waste of time. same shit different year. there will still be drama and stupid fights. there is still a shit fuck government. everything is the same, besides the fact we write 2004 instead of 2003. fuck the new year. -seanthomas- 4 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[30 Dec 2003|09:36am] What Finding Nemo Character are You? brought to you by Quizilla 1 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[29 Dec 2003|05:14pm] im back from the great CC. and i now understands mandy's love of it. although everything is spread out, there arent really any shows, and there is only one mall and it looks like a circus tent, its not whats there, its the people there a met a few wonderful people there. in no order.. katie g, joe, stephanie, bryon, shelly, amy, kaci, andrew. they where all great people. we found some girl named sarah on the side of the road, so we brought her home to st pete. but then we gotta take her back on wednesday. we came back sunday. had a small welcome home party. jtmoney and mel came over. and then we got 2cases of budlight. we have one left. so tonight will be getting drunk. and then tuesday will be getting drunk for mandys party. then wednesday will be getting drunk for mels party/new years eve. today when i got home i got knocked back down to size. found out the my lovely Domino had to be put to sleep on saturday because she a tumor. and the doctor said that 90% of the time in dogs that old that it was cancer. so my parents just put her to sleep. i totally understand. but i will miss her o so much. that dog was one of my bestest friends. Domino Penny Thomas December 1, 1992 - December 27, 2003 R.I.P. Little Girl -seanthomas- -i know this isnt as big as some of you went through a few weeks back. but if you have ever had a dog or a cat, you know they end up being like family. and my dog shall be missed by me like she was a person. cause to me she was a person.- 9 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[25 Dec 2003|07:28pm] well. no one seemed to take a liking to the idea of mandys birthday celebration. so fuck you. well everyone but wes. cause he is all about the idea. we are still having it, if you want to stop by feel free. just youll have to bring your own whatever the fuck you want. im leaving early tomorrow morning shall return on monday. i am heading for citrus county, with the mandypants. goodbye for now LJ. -seanthomas- What is your emo band name? by spiralinghalo Your band name is: The Sad Idea You sound like: Death Cab for Cutie You will be signed to: Saddle Creek Records Your emo lyrics are: "I miss the way you used to know who I was" Name: Created with quill18's MemeGen! 5 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[23 Dec 2003|11:57am] um.. bored like you wouldnt believe. helped mandy paint her room. have been getting drunk the past few nights. well at least friday, saturday, and sunday. hopefully tonight as well. i have to work at 4-7today. and mandy is picking me up. we are hopefully going to go to her house and drink. if i still have money left. anyone want to join? 5dollar cover. you get 6beers with that. which reminds me. if your not doing anything new years eve. we are going to be celebrating my lovely girlfriends birth that night. there will hopefully be a lot of beer. and a lot of alcohol. five dollar cover again that night. hit up the comments or call the cellular device if you want in. -seanthomas- 2 took me to the edge to let me fall..

stolen bricks broken pots [20 Dec 2003|10:39am] last night was drinking, taking some strong ass pill, and going downtown. i saw something i wanted so i picked it up. and then i was like why get one when i can get two. so i picked up another one. then i found a broken thing and the broken piece looked so hott, so i picked it up. serious note.. thursday night, a 16year old died on his bike. apparently a few of my friends knew him. we went to the crash site, and although i didnt know him i had this over whelming sense of sadness rush over me. there where so many people there. signs all along the fence. candles every where. but the two things that stuck out really strongly, an acoustic guitar, and a beer. im sorry to everyone who knew him. im sure you all will miss him dearly. -seanthomas- 13 took me to the edge to let me fall..

Can Wes Scream..? [18 Dec 2003|09:18pm] YEAH! today was a waste of getting outta bed. i only need to be there for 30-45mins. but was there for a good 2+hours. called john to come get me cause my 4th periode i always leave cause.. i dont know the teacher is crazy. so i didnt have an exam. and if i did fuck me i dont care. so i tell christinaC im off to leave with john and she is all like im going too. so we drove to johns house. wacthed some of Orange County. most of it actually. then went driving. the dial on the speedomider couldnt go any higher. i figure we where going atleast 125 down the interstate. it was crazy. i thought the window was going to rip out of the truck. then we found this hill semi downtown. so we jump it going one way doing about 25. and since it was an island, we had to go back the other way. so we did it at about 35 the second time. and johns like fuck this, i know where there is a better hill that i can clear the back side of. so we see this hill down the street, and john guns it. i think he got up to 80. and we totally clear the back of it. it was madness. we go back to school and i go off to mandy, wes, and danny. we go to wes's house to discuss this band we are trying to get together. we came up with the name. then i went on wes's computer and made a email addy, and a screen name on AIM with the name. (wes i need to tell you the AIM SN. cause its not what we where going to do, cause it was to long.) so if you get a email, and the senders name is fatwesSean warswellThomas.. thats me on the bands email addy. anyways. no im outtie to hang out with mandy. tomorrow night is probably going to be mandy, caitlin, hopefully wes, and john, maybe danny and i hanging out. later. -seanthomas- 5 took me to the edge to let me fall..

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